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[hirikosaunders]

I'm not even sure I should be posting this, but I guess I just need to say it. I hold stuff in a lot and really it's done me no good so far so I don't know why I keep doing it.

I feel just so disconnected, like I don't have anyone. I feel so alone. So stressed. I mean even coming home doesn't help that much anymore because I just feel like what's the point? I don't do anything *shrugs*. I feel so tired.

I feel like I should know how to get myself out of this. Like there's just some magic thing, but then I feel like I do that all the time. Maybe just once couldn't I ask for help? But then no that's imposing, or causing trouble and you don't do that.

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[musiquephan.livejournal.com]

HUGE BIG HUGE SQUEEZY HUGS!!!!!

[hirikosaunders.livejournal.com]

Thank you! *big huge hug back*

[shadowcat]

Sweetie, I dunno what all has happened, but I have as many hugs and an ear to lend you if you need me. Always a friend and you're not alone.

[hirikosaunders.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

I think a lot of things have just gotten to me lately and I haven't really had any sort of outlet just to deal with them, even in a silly way.

I think one small thing that will help will be getting another job. It seems selfish a bit of me, but I just kind of want to escape a bit and that would take off so much of my stress.

[shadowcat]

Needing to escape a bit doesn't make you selfish, sweetie.

[hirikosaunders.livejournal.com]

I know, still I think it's one of those things that even though your head knows it the rest of your emotions don't follow.