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I played just a tiny bit of Sims 2 tonight. I aged up the kids from the third gen to teens in the hopes that now I'm not dreading a crash every minute, and I'm a little better energy wise I can continue with the Quick family. I'm a little disappointed it will be a female heir again, but that's okay. In my desire to actually play I probably won't do college this gen, but we'll see. It's a good place to find a significant other for the sims so yeah.

Also, I started on an app for Yoji, as I mentioned on my twitter. I'm pretty excited, and stressed about it at the same time. I'll probably send it in next week so I can look at it again and maybe get someone else to check it out. I should do a canon revisit. Not that I think I'll need it per se, but I it'll help me. Also, I'll probably get on dear_mun and practice. It has been a while after all.

I don't want to have a whole bunch of pups so I'm trying to decide who will be definites. L for sure, and likely Anna. L will be hard to play without Light so who knows if he'll remain for long. I don't want to make him just a temp, but at the same time he'll be a pup I have take extra time with so yeah. After many rewatchings I've noticed a few things that I thought were interesting, but probably nothing that will affect him much anyway. I really should make a list and put them all in order and go from there. I want to remain a little even for gender since I didn't last time.

I also plan to start working again on my fics. I may just take one at a time, because I really want to finish "Papa's Gonna Buy You a Mockingbird" and I had a few ideas for Death Note fic.

I don't normally do New Year's Resolutions, because honestly they don't help me accomplish anything at all, but I do have one thing I want to do in the New Year: be productive. This means that after the holidays are over I'll be working on my Yoji app for TR most likely. I already have one mostly written so it will just require some clean-up. I also plan to work on getting a story sold. I know I say this so much it's not even funny, but I basically want to get some direction this year. Once it is done then I can work on going through on the channels to do something with it. I don't know if anything will happen this year other than the writing, especially since work is still hella stressful and a lot of stress since to block me off big time. These are the big things I want to get going on. I also want to finish Final Fantasy XIII. I'm at a point, though, where I think I'm going to have to spend a lot of time getting points so I can upgrade my characters. I foresee at least a couple of hours, if not more, and I'm not looking forward to it.

I have Sims 3 now. I didn't think my computer would run in, but apparently there's just the tiniest big of lag, I mean it's barely noticeable except when you come out of create-a-sim when you do a makeover. I wasn't sure for the longest time I was going to even get it, and until I get it sorted out like I'll probably be playing Sims 2 more, so really not much has changed. Sadly, I mainly got it for Late Night. Vampires that act like vamps YES PLEASE. I like the way they look in game and I like the whole set up for them so yeah. Yes, I know I'm addicted let's not go there.

I think that's everything for now. I should be updating my Sims very soon, probably after the application for Yoji is done, and I still intend to work on my fics (Papa's gonna buy you a mockingbird needs to be updated so badly).

I hope everyone had a great Christmas and a wonderful New Year!

Well, there is a bit to report on the Marissa front.

I've been pretty sick the past couple of weeks, which is most of the reason for my absence from LJ. It was an upper respiratory infection so basically I've just taken lots of medicine and am feeling a little better now.

I still haven't heard anything from the library. I will be calling them tomorrow and hopefully interviews will be happening soon so I should know within the next two weeks whether I will be getting one or not.

I did something a little impetuous, but honestly I've been thinking about it for a while. I am renting to own a PS3 and a 47 inch TV. I know renting to own is more expensive than buying outright, and there are many fees, and my roommie probably thinks I'm nuts for doing it, but I was tired of not having a TV, and I'm not ready to put out as much money as it would take to buy another TV, especially when it is still possible to get my smaller fixed if we can just make it to Lexington before the summer is over. I really feel like I needed to do something for myself while I was so uncertain about everything else, and when I know I'll need to destress if I need to start the job search over again if the library thing doesn't go well, so I think this was good for me, plus this will allow me to have a bigger TV than I would have been able to buy outright for a while. I already know what I have to do, and have planned for the worst case scenario, at least I think. I still hope to get the other one fixed as a back-up just in case, or if I should move out I will have both to have one for my room and everything.

I am dying to RP so hopefully I'll be working on that soon in some form, I'm not sure what yet. I've been not doing much with the sickness and distraction so I'm still at square one, but at least I'm slowly getting my energy back so I can do something.

Oh, I have played my new legacy family for Sims 2 so that will be coming soon. I just need to upload pics and do the first post. I'm not playing anymore until I get that ready and I'm really excited to share so I might do that tomorrow all depending.

So yeah Death Note has taken over my brain again. I should have known that would happen after watching it again, but you know.

Right now doing laundry, but once I get home in a couple of hours, or less, then I'll probably work on a fic. Not sure which one yet. I could normally work on it here, but right now I'm having to sit outside so it isn't very easy to see my screen. I also need to work out a schedule, but you know I haven't thought about it. It would help if I had the same days off each week, but that isn't likely to happen consistently so for now I'll just have to work around it.

Death Note *stops fangirlling*. Actually the squeeing might not stop for a while. I do apologize in advance. Actually the rewatch may have woken L back up *headdesk* My RP plans are not quite going the way I had hoped with both him and Yoji coming back, but we shall see how it works out.

Well, so far I'm coping with the sporadic 'Net. I'm not coping well though. I keep telling myself only a couple of weeks and things will be back together, but that doesn't work near as much as I would like.

I will be coming back with lots of fics- Tears of Truth will have at least another chapter the week I get back, the final chapter of the 'Private Dancer' verse will be posted around the same time and I am also working on a new Weiss fic. It will be very different from what you have seen so far. Very plot heavy, and will include some playing around with 'Weiss' science. Yes, there is a reason I'm putting it like that...those who have seen the show will understand. It will have quite a few warnings and for that reason will be friends locked. It will also contain several polls as I'm hoping to have it be a little interactive, at least at the beginning. I'm also going to go back and try to continue the other fics I've got going including Honey and Closer.

As for the things I'll be working on to try and sell they may take a few weeks more for me to be ready to move on with them. One requires a lot of paperwork, which will be the culmination of several months work, and the other one needs a detailed outline as well as some character development and such. I think I have the plot down, but really I won't know how much work it needs until I get the basic foundation. There are several other things I'm going to try and work on, but these two are the priority for the moment.

I also intend to continue trying to get a library job, or go back to school in January. It will take a lot of planning for me to go back so I'm just going to see where that goes. I will have to move to a different city, and possibly live in the dorms to get the degree I really want, but I may talk to people at Eastern because they have a degree that covers grade school library science so it may just be easier to do that then take a semester at UK to get the ones required for college, or you know I may totally not know what I'm talking about and really they won't work well together at all so yeah I'll figure that out first before I make any solid plans one way or another.

Finally, on an RP note. I want to get back into things slowly simply because I have found that if I let myself get too stressed it just plays havoc with trying to keep up in LJ RP. I close off and even though I want to interact I end up doing nothing. I guess I get overwhelmed easily. I'm trying to learn some stress management techniques that work for me, one of which would be getting a library job, but realistically that isn't something I can plan on any time soon, so yeah back to the drawing board on that one. One plan I'm working on is limiting myself to maybe 3 or 4 characters no matter how RPs I might be in. This way I can really concentrate on them and it won't be as hard to meet requirements. I'm still working things out in my head for now since I can't really say how things will go once I get the wireless. After all, Yoji's voice came back and so now he is back in the mix. So much for starting completely clean, which really isn't all bad because he's Yoji after all.

Mostly these are the things I'm thinking about for the summer, and early autumn. As long as there are no unforeseen issues once I settle into somewhat of a routine at McDonald's I should be able to relax and figure out where to go from here. I like my routines I admit.

I'm not yet ready to get back into LJ RPing the biggest reason for this being the fact it is very likely that I will lose my 'net on Tuesday morning and probably won't get it back until the end of May. This doesn't mean that those voices have completely gone away though.

I played Yoji from Weiss Kreuz and I guess I shouldn't be surprised that he came back, well I guess he never left to be honest, but my iPod and iTunes have been very fond of Weiss songs lately just reminding me of my love for him. I still can't afford to get his paid account back (his vanity really won't let me get away with 15 *grins*), but I did a bit of cleaning on icons to get a bit more to show up. There are at least two I will be adding back in when I can. I have no idea where he will end up, or if I will still continue with this when the time comes, but yeah... *grins* Oh Yoji.

Okay, another plea for help from my F-list:

If you had to pick a person to 'play' Yuna (FF 10) who would be at the top of your list?

Well July for the most part has sucked. There have been like maybe two bright spots. Anyway, still looking for a job and feeling useless and pretty helpless.

RP wise: I will be attempting to get out all of my pups in the games I am so that when my internet goes undependable after the 8th of August I won't have to worry about it. I should still be able to get on, but I'm planning for the worst at the moment.

Not much else to report. I am holding out what little hope I have left that August will be better than July and that by December/January I can begin accomplishing getting things properly settled.

Well this update is necessary for a couple of reasons. One being that yes I'm alive and surviving whatever we want to call this storm (it needs a name people help me out). There is no power in my house so I am currently at the parents of one of my roommates. Hopefully the power will hold here. If it doesn't I have no idea of our options. It may or may not snow again and because of the college being closed I've not started my new co-op yet. I am attempting to find out if school is closed tomorrow and through the weekend, but so far no luck.

And oh by the way...yeah so I decided to head into work yesterday (idiot me didn't check on things right before I left). I got there and it was closed and since I didn't know what else to do, and didn't want to wait for several hours, I decided to try and walk home. My current place isn't too far from the campus and I thought that it wouldn't be that bad. It didn't seem that cold to me and I had on a thick coat plus three layers. Off I went only as I made it about hallway home I fell. My glasses cut my nose in two places and I banged it up (it isn't like I haven't done enough to my nose considering when I was a child I busted it open...). So I got it tended to and find that I cut my hand a little and have a bruise on my knee as well. I finally got home, but promised myself unless it was absolutely necessary I wasn't going to ever be in that situation at all ever again. So yes lesson learned.

Other than that I've played lots of Sims and will have a post ready soon since I've organized the pictures I've taken. I'll probably do that as soon as we are back home. There will be a poll and it may be extra long, or there might be two in one day since now I have two of my families up.

Tags will continue to come as I can, but they might be slowish due to the fact that since these people were nice enough to let me stay here I shouldn't spend all of my time on the computer. I will be doing a state of the pups and tagging Raistlin into Guy's post. I think that's all for the moment. If you really need me I don't know if I'll be on aim, but I am available most of the time on Gmail talk.

I'm putting this warning out there. Hopefully most people expecting tags from me will see it.

Finals week is next week and this week I have two presentations, plus a paper so I am slightly stressed. I will attempt to respond to tags as quickly as possible and not to drop anything, but just in case stress is why and not any other reason.

I might put some warnings in out of character communities if it becomes necessary.

I haven't done one of these in forever so I figured it's long overdue:

( Wondering what on earth I'm doing here... )

And LJ notifs are being so lame. *ugh*

I am in sort of a stressed state and though I know not many people are waiting on tags from me they won't be coming until tomorrow probably...maybe tonight. I am not going to rant here what it was about, but needless to say it's a very familiar issue for me.

Anyway, I wanted to write down this dream before it went away:

( I don't go to sleep to dream )

Anyone who can see this and is expecting tags from me they will be VERY slow. They may even have to FTB because I just got some bad news and I have no idea what I'm going to do.

Dear Me:

No, it is not okay to be flaky one day (actually a LOT of days, but work with me here) and then be almost manic the next day. And by the way the manic isn't actually fixing the flaky which makes it worse, 'kay.

No love at the moment,
Me


After having been a member of bad_rpers_suck for a while I feel very lucky. Let me explain no there is too much let me sum up. I have rped table top, IM, and LiveJournal and you know what? Other than minor glitches (mostly with one GM during the table top days) and some minor frustrations (mostly at myself) I have enjoyed myself. I've learned and grown, well tried to anyway. I've mostly avoided major problems, stalkers and all that horrid stuff. I've met talented people who I think have helped me get better simply by being around them and I've been able to experience a lot of different things. Of course the process still goes on, but with the mind boggling that I've had at seeing what some people have gone through I've just had to take this moment to acknowledge that.

I come bearing two questions:

The first being if anyone else on my F-list is a member of basicbases how exactly do I decipher their new tag system? I am lost and it is sad.

Second, if someone knows of anywhere I can find good icons of babies please let me know. I can't believe it's already time *bouncy* but yes I went to work on Jessica's labor post and realized I was woefully unprepared. Okay, I'm being picky and such..but but..anyway if anyone can point me in the direction I would love you forever.

I think that is everything? *goes off to work on post*

So my attention was pointed in the direction of the Writer's Block question. Today it seems it's vampires vs werewolves. Okay, to be completely honest this is a no brainer for me, but since I actually feel like posting and not being a total flake here goes:

I love vampires. I've been obsessed with them since I was a teenager. I don't even remember how I actually became introduced to the idea..hmmmm...I may have even had a vampire dream before I knew what they were. I've never actually thought about why I am so interested in them before. I'm not even sure I could explain it. I have huge issues with darkness, especially total darkness, and yet I am drawn to vampires? Yeah, I'd probably give a psychologist so much to work with...anyway, other than reading, and watching, just about everything I can find which has vampires in it, and writing several vampire stories of my own I used to roleplay Vampire: The Masquerade. I miss table top gaming so much it's not even funny. So...yeah that's maybe less than I wanted to say, but we'll go with it.

As for werewolves to be honest only two times have I ever been remotely interested in were-creatures of any sort. The first was the book Blood and Chocolate, the other is the Anita Blake books. I think my favs are the were-rats maybe? So yes my slightly long winded answer that I'm not sure said all that much.

So yeah, this probably won't make a lot of sense to most people, or maybe it will, but anyway it needs to be said.

My stoic, silent, emotionally distant assassin (yeah, you know the one)..anyway, apparently he has 'moth to a flame' disease. I am still WTFing about this (in a good way of course). He is trying to pin the blame on me, but nope not going to happen.

I have proof, but it would take up a lot of space *grins*.

Although I have a "plot" section on my Wiki I figured this helped me get that worked out so here we go again:

( and here they are.. )

Well I've put some drabbles from memes on my character's journals. And I turned in a project for my one class today. I think it probably isn't that great, but we'll see. Next week should be pretty light and hopefully I'll get my tagging mojo back. It's coming slowly..very slowly.

At some point today I want to go through all of my pups and write down specific plot ideas on a month by month basis. I'm hoping this will also help me get over the blahs, or whatever it was that I've been fighting on and off since December. I have no idea how I will do this since I just want something for my own thoughts.

I also plan to by this weekend to start working on an outline of this particular story that I got inspired about a week or so ago. I don't know how quickly it will go, but we'll see. It surprised me that this idea hit out of nowhere so I'm going to go with it.

Other than this not much going on.

Oh, just a warning it seems that notifs might not be going through for some people?

And it goes a little something like this:

Write
Homework
Write
Roleplay (which includes working on app)
Write
Organize my room with the shelves that maybe are coming my way
Write
Organize all my story notes as well as anything already written
Write!
Update LJ more often
Write!!


As you can see writing has got to be a top priority from now on. I have to deal with looking at agents, shopping short stories around and maybe even looking into self publishing. I can't let it happen again that I graduate and have no job and feel like crap because I've wasted the time I should have used.

Well if I don't totally mess up this semester, which is a high possibility sadly, this is what my schedule for classes looks like next semester: Intro to Creative Writing (which might actually get me off of my butt, but we shall have to see), Business Finance I (Oh the excitement...only not so much), Operations Management(no excitement here either), Services Marketing (minor excitement, but you know not really), Internet Marketing (*shrugs*) and finally Survey of the Music Industry II (this one might be a little interesting, but we shall see). Anyway, yes let's hope that I do not mess up this semester and you know run around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to fix it.

There is also the whole fear/nervousness of trying to get ready to graduate. I can't afford to waste time at all because I will go through the financial mess that I went through (which I've still not really recovered from) when I graduated the last time. I'm pretty sure I'll have to move and while it's exciting I just...well I don't know if I'm ready.

As can be seen from my icon a certain fandom, which is never far from my heart anyway, is back in the spotlight. I first saw Ronin Warriors (Samurai Troopers in the Japanese) in 96-97? A friend got a hold of all of the episodes through another friend when he saw her printing out pictures from the series and told her he had the episodes. Since then I have had to sit through untranslated movies, buying action figures, them finally putting the DVDs out and finding out how different, and yet amazingly the same, that the English version was, and of course I've been through many fandoms since. Now I finally have icons (Yay!) and will be putting the music from it in MP3 format very soon (probably over break?) so I am a little giddy. Weiss Kreuz is making it's way back into the front of my head again too so *grins*.

I'm still RPing and loving it, but then that isn't really news, now is it? I have made new journals for characters but who knows if they will go anywhere.

I've gotten this from a lot of people on my friend's list.


Name a character that you know I roleplay or have roleplayed, and I’ll tell you:

a. What initially prompted me to like the character enough to write about him/her
b. One of his/her best traits
c. One of his/her worst traits
d. How easy/difficult I find it to write the character
e. The story/chapter/paragraph/phrase where I feel that I truly captured the character
f. My plans (if any) to write the character in the near future

( and here is the list )